Monday, August 29, 2016

Of Spiders and Salads

I started training last week in the produce department at a local grocery store. So I am learning all about the different types and varieties of lettuce, apples and even peaches.

I have to do lifting of boxes 20-40 pounds each at times to load the carts in the back and stock the shelves out front. This is the most physically demanding job I have had in a very long time. I like the crew I work with and for the most part they all seem to get along.

Last Wednesday while getting ready to go run errands, I felt a sting or pinch on my leg and shook it off, never thought any more about it until I got home that night and realized a bug or spider had bitten me. It didn't hurt much at first, but by Friday, my leg was red, the bite mark became dark purple/black and it was more and more difficult to put much pressure on that leg.

I went to the Emergency Room after work on Friday and they concurred that it was most likely a brown recluse bite because of the redness and symptoms I was having.  I ended up with blood work done, iv's going and antibiotics flooding my system, they gave me something for the pain right before they discharged me and made sure I had someone to drive me home.

David was by my side for most of those events and I set alarms on my phone to wake me up to take all my meds all weekend long. I am still in pain but not near as much. I don't know how this will end up but I am betting I end up back the doctor's or the hospital before this spider ordeal is done.

Moral of my story? Shake out your clothes before you put them on (every time!)

Take care of those closest to you. When they text you, don't ignore them! You never know if you are the last person they will call before giving up or not.  The domestic violence hotline is 1-800-799-7233. Please save this number in your phone and give it to your friends. It links you to a national network to help you get the services you may need some time in the future.

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Adventures in a small town

After I posted my blog the other day, I got a few questions. They ranged from asking me if I was on dope for leaving my government job to when did I get married.

I laughed at both questions. No David and I are not married, but we are committed to each other, love each other, support each other, pay bills together and have a good life right now together. I use the words husband, hubby, partner, boyfriend all interchangeably because we are committed to making a life together.  I just wish people could just live and let live and not be nosy in our business. For now, this works for us and honestly, this is none of no one's business but our own because no one pays our bills but us.

And to the question about me being a dope for leaving state government.... well, you weren't doing the driving I was doing and absolutely miserable in an office with very little supervisory support.  My supervisor is a great person, but when you play favorites for 14 years to an employee that has a horrible attendance record, people wonder what exactly she is holding over your head.  I was sick of that, the crazy workload and the verbal abuse from other department chiefs that was never addressed. Being told to ignore the behavior is not dealing with it and allowing the 50 year old (spoiled brat) manager of TWRA law enforcement be ugly to the clerks, make them feel like dirt and treat them horribly, is just not what anyone should want to deal with on a regular basis.  I know now, I should have reported this person and left a paper trail so that others had a hope of getting their voice heard.

I worked 8 hours today in Produce at the local Kroger's here in Dickson. My feet, legs, back, neck hurt and are screaming as I wait on the muscle relaxers to kick in. I have not had this physical of a job in many years. I have learned all kinds of things about stocking, inventory, damaged food, disposal, and store policies. I am slowly getting to know my co workers and who I can and cannot talk to. Soon I will be trained in Floral and Nutrition too. I love to learn, but right now, I am a bit overwhelmed.

I came home to a package from PartyLite!  I received my Artisan Owl and Creepy Cauldron Jar Candle holders!  Time to decorate a bit for fall. So glad that my dear David doesn't mind all the candles in the house.

I hope this Thursday has been a blessing to you in some way. Always make the effort to find the good in your day and it will help you cope with the rough issues or hard times at home/work.

Hugs and love to all my readers and hope if this blessed you, that you will share this blog with your friends. Remember, I have a Facebook page for the blog too, so you can comment there or share that information as well.

If you need the hotline, the number is -1-800-799-7233

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Opportunity or Obstacle?

I see and hear of my friends near and far going through loss of loved ones, loss of jobs, accepting new job offers and moving into new homes.

The one constant is that life goes on. Even in our sadness and grief, the clock keeps ticking.

Back in July, my husband and I made a decision and I quit my job with the state in order to find a job locally so that I wouldn't be commuting 2-2.5 hours each weekday to a job I had come to despise.

20 years with state government was a milestone I reached back in February and at first I was proud of that milestone. Then after much thought and reflection, I came to regret the years I spent sitting in jobs I hated and being unhappy.

Here I was making changes in my personal life, and at home and my work life was depressing and increasingly stressful. When you come home every night angry and upset at situations/supervisors that refuse to change or play favorites, it is time to get out and get on with your life. No one should stay unhappy.

So for about 6 weeks I was completely unemployed. David earns enough for me not to have to work, but I was determined to find a job here in Dickson that brought in some money, challenged me and taught me new things or a new industry.

In the past 5 years I have held 2 different jobs in retail and for various reasons left them. I was still intrigued and curious about working retail. Even on my worst days in the accounting office, when I was reduced to tears, I would tell my work buddy that I should just walk out and go back to home depot where at least I wasn't stressed out everyday. Most of my co -workers didn't understand, but Tiffany did.

As of this past Saturday, I am now a Kroger employee and I am excited to learn new things, bought my khaki pants and non-skid shoes and I am ready to learn.

I got a bit anxious on Sunday when I saw a former close friend in the aisles and she never visually indicated she saw or even noticed me, but I saw her and her husband. We used to be very close but life and situations took us in different directions.

I had to check my thoughts and remind myself that I have nothing to be ashamed of. Some people look down on those employed in restaurants, gas stations, discount stores or grocery stores and they shouldn't do that at all.

If you work hard and want to move up in any company, you just have to apply yourself and learn all you can. You are not your job title or even your address, you are who you are on the inside and that is ALL that matters.

My husband and I work hard to take care of each other, be there for family near and far and do our best to be kind and love others in our lives. We are committed to each other and will not allow others to put us down or our choices down.

What do you have ahead of you this week? Opportunities or Obstacles?

I hope everyone has a blessed week!
Scripture says "Rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep".

If you are in danger, please get you and your family to a safe place or call the hotline for assistance - 1-800-799-7233

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Struggle to stay positive

Yes, many of us struggle every day to keep that positive mask on our faces. I have struggled with that for years. My friend Judy said to me last year that it is ok to be discouraged or have a bad day, just don't unpack and move there. That always makes me smile because I know she is 100% genuine and has been through good times and bad. When a person is real, you know you can trust what they say is sincere and not some trite comment they thought would make you feel better.

My family is rejoicing since yesterday morning when we received the news that my dad has been declared cancer free! He was diagnosed with colon cancer and lung cancer last fall, had two surgeries and 6 months of preventative chemo. Here we are 11 months later and through lots of prayer and faith we have seen dad come out cancer free on the other side. The relief that showered over us yesterday was huge.

I have had interviews, online assessments and put out feelers for jobs available locally. Today I am going to a hiring fair to do on the spot interviews.

I have doubts daily and I have to put them aside, find something to do and fight them off. I refuse to cave into depression this time around.

Even when you receive good news, finish your to-do list, or get a $200.00 order you still may struggle to see the light at the end of your tunnel.

Please reach out to a friend, help them and you will forget your troubles for a time and put your energy into listening, helping and holding up a friend. And your friendship will get deeper and stronger too!

I want everyone to finish this race we call life.  Not just a couple of us. All of us can finish, we just take different paths.

If you are in danger, please ask for assistance and get out! Don't wait another day, this is not something to put off or procrastinate. Call the hotline at 1-800-799-7233 and get some help today. Call your local shelters and offer to donate items, hold a fundraiser or volunteer your time.