Monday, June 27, 2016

Daily Grind

Some days are full of events and activities and fun things to do, some days are full of obligations, work, traffic and all those things we do to make a living.

Our offices are under construction at TWRA and we have had a few days off of work because of water, and power being out a few times this summer. Yes, we are constantly behind and stressed out by vendors and co-workers, but we go in there every day and take the verbal abuse just to get the paycheck all with a smile on our face.

Right now, today, I hate my job, I hate the stress and I hate my commute.

I am currently looking for a new job closer to home. I enjoy the people I work with. In fact, one of the girls in the office has quickly become a very close friend that I will miss horribly once I find a job in Dickson County.

Again and again, I realize that even the daily grind can be a beautiful thing when you know you are not going through it alone.

I know every morning and every night, I can only do what God enables me to do. Folks, I am nobody special. I am privileged to have survived my past and know without a doubt that God has a plan for me.

Sometimes, you lose faith in those you have put upon a pedestal. I have recently stopped reading and supporting a few authors and bloggers. 4 years ago, I read their books like they were gospel.  But recently, I have watched them fall off their pedestals in my eyes.

Please know that you are not alone in the circumstances you are going through. There is always someone who has been through it before.

Seek out those that share your beliefs and communicate honestly with them.
Keep going forward and don't give up!!

You can get assistance if you only ask.. 1-800-799-7233

Tuesday, June 21, 2016


I deal with anger on a regular basis.

I got angry when I heard about the Gorilla getting killed because a small child got into the enclosure at the Zoo.

I got sad/angry when I heard about a young life killed at an Orlando night spot.

I got sad/angry when I woke up 2 Sundays ago to hear about 49 people getting shot in Orlando. This one is still angering me and I do hurt for all the families that lost brothers, sisters, daughters, sons, uncles and aunts in that massacre.

My heart hurt for the mom who lost her two year old at Disney.

None of these things can be fixed by any human on earth. Laws will not keep criminals from killing people. Hate will always be in the world and some people choose to be and stay evil-minded. That is just the way life is.  All we can control is how We treat others.

No matter what your religious affiliation, people losing their lives should never be blindly accepted.

Take care of those you love and forgive those that hurt you. The forgiveness will help you heal and move forward. Forgiveness is not for the person you are forgiving, it is so YOU can move on. 

Forgiveness is not easy and sometimes you have do work on it daily to forgive someone for the big things.

You can get angry but don't take action while in that state of mind.

I do my best to love people around me at work, home, in traffic and at the store. I mess up horribly sometimes and lash out.  That is when I have to check myself and correct myself.

If you are in danger, seek assistance from the local shelter.. or call the hotline to find one near you!
Hotline 1-800-799-7233.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Hurting and Hoping

What hurts me most might surprise people. I have been asked if I have any disappointments or hurts in my life and how I get over them. So here is my answer:

One of the biggest pains in my heart is that my son and his wife and 3 children live so far away and I cannot see them. I have not seen my son face to face since December 29, 2013 when he took me to the airport in Denver so I could fly home to Tennessee.

Another hurtful thing in my life is watching the love of my life text his children and wait anxiously for a reply that rarely comes back quickly.

I often catch myself missing three women that were in my life for many years and for various reasons (one had an affair with my husband, one just blew up at me one day in February and cut off contact and the other, I guess we just drifted apart as she got the job of her dreams at a local college).

Getting passed over for a promotion at work hurts me quite often.

Remembering the money I used to make at a former job (funny thing is the work was easy but my boss was very difficult to get along with) get me down at times if I allow it.

I have an extremely strained relationship with my mother and this pains me more than most will ever know.

Since my father was diagnosed with cancer last September, I jump when I get text messages from my dad hoping and praying it is not bad news.

Even with all these worries and hurts in my life and memory, I do have hope for the future.

I dream of having all my grandchildren here at the house every so often.

I pray that I can be a help to others and do my best to listen whether I feel like it or not.

And I keep interviewing and applying for other jobs asking God to place me where he wants me to be and serve.

If you are in danger, please get help and remember to call 1-800-799-7233 if you need assistance!

Thursday, June 9, 2016


Everyone is going to have disagreements in nearly every part of their lives.

You disagree with your children, spouse, fiance, parents, siblings, co-workers, supervisor and even your best and longest friends.

The disagreements are over many varied subjects too. Some that come to mind are money, finances, house chores, schoolwork, video game time, workload, movies, politics and religion/spiritual topics.

When you have a direct issue with someone, it is best if you confront that person and deal with it as fast as possible. What was an issue to you, could not even be a thing to them. Clearing the air and knowing where the other person is coming from will help you now and in the future.

Some folks are transparent about their beliefs and love to share them boldly and from the rooftops and there is no doubt what their opinion is. 

The ones with class will tell you their opinion of your life and/or choices, so you know how they feel and not shove their opinion down your throat every time you interact with them.

Some will walk away from you if your belief system is not the same as theirs.

Some people will try to change you to see their side.

But the ones that mean the most to you, are the ones who are there for you, give opinion when it is asked for and love you through it all unconditionally.

Some people are petrified of confrontation because they have a history of being punished for their opinion. Punishments include silent treatment, taking away their car keys, refusing to allow them to go out of the house, withholding affection or even access to the family checking account. Be gentle with these type of people, it will take them a lot longer to trust or ask for anything because of the fear in their past and nightmares.

It is best to be kind to all, speak your opinion with love and choose your battles. Don't make generalized statements to people when you don't know their complete background. If you do this, you might lose a great friend who takes something the wrong way.

Be there for people and always have a heart to listen. If you are in danger, seek help by calling the domestic violence hotline 1-800-799-7233.

Monday, June 6, 2016


We spend a lot of each day waiting for something. Waiting in line to pay for our groceries, waiting for the traffic light to change, waiting for the gas pump to pump gas into our cars and many other things occupy our day to day routine.

It is easy to get frustrated while waiting on things to happen in our lives.

I am not a very patient person, but I have improved over the way I used to be for sure. I have learned over and over to trust God's Timing in every part of my life because HIS Timing is the best of all.

Stop right now and think about what are you waiting to happen.  Are you waiting/anticipating something wonderful to happen? Or are you waiting/anticipating something bad to happen?

Good or bad, things happen to us no matter what and you will get through them. Yes, that flat tire during rush hour was a pain, but you got through it and eventually got to work that day and the rest of your day went on as usual.

I spent most of April counting down the days to vacation and working .. sometimes I caught myself day-dreaming about our upcoming trip, but I had to shake it off and move forward so I could focus on the present day.

I have learned that every day is a blessing (even a bad day you were stuck in traffic for two hours in the rain/storms)!

Cherish every day you have with your loved ones. You never know when their time on Earth will end.

If I can learn to relax (even a bit), then everyone else can too. Don't focus on the waiting, focus on the blessings and enjoy the day or night you have right now.

If you are in a dangerous home situation, don't wait, get out now and ask for help from a trusted friend ( I know you have at least one, maybe you have 4 or 5!) and call the Domestic Violence hotline for assistance as well. 1-800-799-7233. The volunteers/staff are there to help you !!!