Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Change

Change is inevitable in everyone's life.
Some changes are good and healthy and some changes are completely out of our control.

As we close out this tumultuous month of September for my family, I am daily reminded of how much we are blessed to have each other. We may not speak every day and we may not agree on many topics, but when the chips are down and one of us needs help, we are there for each other.

My sisters and I were all on site last week when my dad had his surgery on my birthday. Many family friends and acquaintances called, texted, emailed and stopped by to check on my dad. I am happy to report that he was released from the hospital on Monday and is recovering at home. He may be moving slow but he seems to be doing well from what I can see and hear.

My family was blessed on Monday of this week when my daughter gave birth to her second child. Little Xander arrived a few days before his due date and is healthy and thriving. They should be released from the hospital today.

Many changes are in the works for me personally as I change addresses and move forward with my life. I am overwhelmed with thankfulness and gratitude for all that our family and loved ones have been blessed with in the recent days and weeks.

What started out as a very scary time for us as a family has made us sit up and take notice of the truly important things in life.  Being there for each other and loving each other no matter what are most important to me these days.

Take time to call that friend and reach out to check on those you haven't heard from in a while. You never know just how much your friendly call could boost their spirits!

Monday, September 14, 2015

Tick Tock

Time passes whether we do anything in that hour or not.
Choosing to rest is still a choice of a way to spend your time.

I heard over the weekend that an old friend from my college days passed away. I knew he was living in Atlanta and still don't know if he was ill or what the cause of his passing was. Even though I haven't spoken to him since I lived in Georgia, I feel for his family and all of those who knew him.

In recent weeks, I have spent time reaching out to old friends myself. I realized (again and again) that no matter how much time goes by certain people will always be there when the chips are down in our lives.

I may be echoing other recent messages here in the blog but I cannot stress enough how important good friendships are.  We should all go to God in prayer first of all with anything. I also know for a fact that a godly relationship will help you keep yourself in check when all you want to do is runaway. So call that old friend, call a new friend, take a friend out for coffee or volunteer at the food bank. Do something with your time to help it pass more quickly. 

Waiting for answers is the absolute worst way to spend your day. These days I personally have to make myself go to work and do the job.. because I am so caught up in what might be happening for my father. I cannot fix it or change it, and I am choosing to pray.  My prayers are not eloquent or full of fancy words but God knows my heart's desire before I speak it.

I recently saw the movie War Room and it touched me and reminded me how powerful prayer is and how we as Christians must choose it first for everything and every battle. 

I was reminded of Ephesians 6:12:
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

And

2 Chronicles 7:14:
 If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

God hears our prayers and sees a repentant heart. Trust God with all you want to do and all you need. God can change a heart in ways you cannot imagine.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Courage

Courage to me is getting up every day and facing the unknown.

Putting on a brave face when there is not enough money to buy groceries but you believe it will work out anyway (and some angel shows up with 2 bags of groceries you didn't ask for).

Courage is asking for help when you don't know where to turn, how to feel or how to act or even who you can lean on anymore.

Yesterday a family I grew up next to lost their father. Even though we have not lived on that street since 1993, my heart broke for his 6 children, many grandchildren and his wife of many, many years.

Today is more tests for my dad to find out if there are any other areas with tumors or issues.  So I am at the office, planning to get some work done. I may cry, I may lash out, and I pray I hold it together but I know if I have a melt down, I won't be made fun of or sent home, this group of co-workers I have right now are golden to me because we all are holding each other up.

I do not have any super powers, but I do have the capability to put one foot in front of the other, be honest about my feelings and keep going forward praying all the way.

2 of the most courageous people in my life are my 2 children. My daughter is expecting her second child at the beginning of October, yet she is choosing to do as much for the family as she always has before. My son is in Colorado and his wife is expecting their 3rd child in late October. He is taking classes and facing some uncertainty as well. But he is doing the best he can with the job he has to provide for his family in the meantime. He has not runaway.. and I am so proud of him for sticking with his family.

These are just a few examples of courage that I see right now and they inspire me to keep going no matter what because that is the way my dad raised me. He instilled a strong work ethic in all of us girls and always told us we can do anything we set our mind to.  Yes, we all three can be very stubborn and that usually helps us handle anything that comes our way.

Be courageous, Encourage someone around, Call a friend just see how they are doing, Send a card to let people know you are thinking of them.

If you are in immediate danger call 911. For assistance and locations of safe houses, please call 1-800-799-7233.

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Curve Balls

You wake up and go to work, then you get a text message that your dad has been admitted to the hospital for tests. That was my Monday this week. After many tests and now we as a family are facing surgery and uncertainty.

Who have I leaned on? My friends, family, my boyfriend and my church family have all been here for me either through text or phone calls. All have rallied round me and sent prayers and positive thoughts to our family. I have an awesome boss who truly believes (not just says) family first.

Do I know what our future holds? No, But I know who holds our future and that is my God. He is not surprised by any of this and I know he hears our cries and worries and prayers right now.

To say I am numb or scatterbrained today is an understatement. I am facing things I have never faced before and I am frightened to say the very least.  I am doing the best I can to put on a brave face and stay strong until we know results. But inside I feel like a little 7 year old girl who is lost and doesn't know which way to turn.

Last night, I went to Wednesday night services at my church and when I walked in, I burst into tears and no one shunned me. They were all concerned and rallied around me. That is family.

I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has this under control, please pray with me that we have answers and a plan of action tomorrow. I am selfish and I don't want to lose my dad.

There are so many right now that I could name that are going through potential loss situations and much more threatening health situations. We are all holding each other up and that is a beautiful thing.

Keep praying and keep looking upward.
If you are in danger, seek assistance! Call 1-800-799-7233 or your local shelter!