Wednesday, June 24, 2015


There are all types of friends and acquaintances in this world.

Some folks we pass in the hall every day at work and just smile but never take the time to get to know who they really are.

Then there are people in our lives who from almost day one with them, you can be comfortable, open and honest and tell it like it is no matter what and with no repercussions or fears for your comments or opinions.

I have quite a collection of "listeners" in my life. I can text, facebook or email them and say I really need to talk something out, and if they are available they have been godsends to me for letting me vent, bounce off ideas or just work through my feelings on certain things.  Some of them are from direct sales, some from church and some from work, but they ALL are valuable to be.

I have done my share of listening to others going through stuff and in some cases we are co-listeners and take care of each other on a daily basis. I even go through withdrawals sometimes when a certain listener goes on vacation and we can't chat every day.

Today I say thank you to all the listeners and encouragement counselors in my life. If I have ever cried on your shoulder or vented to you, then you are included in this. You have helped direct me back to my faith and kept me on the straight pathway I need to be on.  Sometimes you had to tell me over and over again for me to get it but I am So thankful for each of you!

Who can you listen to and help? Reach out and be that kind of friend! You will surely be blessed.

If you are in danger, call 911!
If you need guidance/assistance for a bad situation, please call the hotline 1-800-799-7233.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

One Foot In Front of the Other

Ever have a time in your life where you don't see the purpose or what is ahead?

I sure have and still do.

I get stir crazy and push people away that have been there all along cause I get really scared and even though I am in the midst of many changes and great beginnings, I still feel the urge to crawl in a hole and hide my head from all the harsh realities that are swirling around me.

I know that God has a plan and his plan and timing are perfect, but I don't always lean on that first. I am flawed but I am working hard to strengthen my faith and praying more and more every day for focus and determination to get through the rough times and believe better times are ahead for me and my loved ones.

I have days where I go into the office on auto-pilot and just pray to push through the work, phone calls, issues and corrections with a smile on my face and then I go home and crash.

One of my favorite bible verses of all my life is Isaiah 41:10 -
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed, for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.  

This verse spoke to me on December 24, 1989 the day after the wreck that broke my arm in two places, dislocated my knee and caused x1 to have 7 stitches in his forehead.   Yes, we survived the night before and we found out that night at Vandy Trauma that we were being blessed with a little  girl we would name Kourtney.  We woke the next morning knowing exactly how blessed we were.

When my dad went to the wreck site the next morning he was looking for my glasses for me and found them safely shielded in my Bible which would open to Isa. 41 and the first verse I laid eyes on that day.. was Isa. 41:10.  I have gained strength from this verse for many many years and trials. 

Keep putting one foot in front of the other and work diligently at what you have in front of you. Lean on the One who understands and knows you inside and out. God is there for us, we just have to open a dialogue with him to know him better day by day and hour by hour.

If you are in danger, please seek help either by calling 911 for immediate danger or 1-800-799-7233 for assistance to get out of your situation.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Run Away Mode

"RUN AWAY MODE" Those who are closest to me are very familiar with this phrase because I use it a lot when I get personally overwhelmed and don't know what to do next.

Ladies & Gentlemen, I have been drowning in run away mode for at least a month now.

I have goals that are hovering over me wondering if I am ever going to reach out and achieve them and I have people in my life that want the best for me. But when you are overwhelmed, you can't see past the current chaos (or storm) that is chasing you.

Last Sunday I asked for prayers for peace, direction and wisdom for choices that must be made. I am blessed to have many Godly friends and acquaintances that willingly pray for each other.

I am still overwhelmed but I see ways to get where I need to get. It's been almost 3 years since I moved back to TN and I am no where near where I had imagined I would be.

 Don't get me wrong, I have many blessings and stay very thankful every day for what and who I have in my life in 2015. 

But I have a nagging voice in me because of one part of my life that I desperately need to change.

So, be assured that even though in my deepest thoughts and dreams these days I simply want to get in my car and drive away from 'it all', that in reality, I may take a social media break or even turn off my cell phone for hours to completely ignore the world, I have not left my responsibilities.

On this beautiful Monday morning, I come asking for your continued prayers for me and my choices ahead of me. I may be in the midst of chaos but I know that our Lord and Savior is right here beside me holding me steady so that I do not fall.

I pray you all stay safe, lift each other up and share my story if you feel it would be of benefit to others.

If you are in immediate danger call 911.
Domestic Violence Hotline is 1-800-799-7233.