Saturday, June 17, 2017

Rest, Relax and Recognize!!

For years I was made to feel guilty if I took a nap in the day time just because I was tired.
I was expected to go, go, go and only fall asleep at night. Well, That just doesn't work in the real world.

Turns out that those people who expected me to go all the time were selfish and wanted things done for them on their personal schedule with no regard or thought for my well-being or safety.

I realized this earlier this year when I was working nights. I was still taking care of grocery shopping and the stuff needing done around the house but I was so tired. I was working nights and feeling guilty for not taking care of others around me.

But my dear David just put up the black out curtains in the back bedroom and kept suggesting I rest when I needed to. He assured me I would find a way to cope through it and not to spend a moment worrying about him.

We fell into a routine and I would text him when I would lay down in the late afternoon and usually I slept right through him coming home from work and once I got up for work at night, he either already had dinner ready or had it packed for me to take with me. He has taken such great care of me and taught me that it is ok to spend a day resting and doing nothing.

David has two children that live in west Tennessee and usually only sees them a couple times a year. They rarely have time to call him back or work out a time for him to visit or take a trip together. He calls and texts them both and rarely gets a return message or even a "Hi Dad" without contacting them first. It breaks my heart to see him treated this way.

I know divorce is ugly and that everyone has their own perspective, but those teenagers should at the very least call their dad on Father's Day weekend to say hi and give him 5 minutes of their time.

You see, My first husband (father of Kourtney/Brian) walked out and never made contact for 20 years. His only contact was directly to me and a few emails to Kourtney until 2007. If he had tried to communicate, I would have allowed him to talk to the kids without any thought to it.

My 2nd husband was a stand in father figure and was there for my daughter in those teenage years that are so crazy. He walked her down the aisle when she married her husband. They have good memories, but he too has left us and didn't look back. For years, when Kourtney and Brian did anything for Father's Day it was for my 2nd husband because they had zero contact from their biological father.

My Father's Day wish tomorrow for my David is that he gets a phone call from both his children that acknowledges him as he deserves. He should not have to reach out first every time. No one should be ignored no matter what they have been told or taught by the other parent. He always calls and sends gifts on their birthday's, has helped getting Logan a car and is there when they need him. I feel it is time for a bit of appreciation from them this time.


Saturday, June 10, 2017

Busy Day Here

Well, Last night was it.
My last night doing the graveyard shift for DSDC.
I almost was there 6 months to the day, but it was time to move forward.

This morning at 7:03 when I left for home, I was excited but tired from being up all night. I had all these plans for things to do today on my first Saturday without a curfew in 6 months.

Well...
I didn't quite do what I had planned on doing. I got home and was very tired and coughing a lot. So I decided to relax and try to sleep. Being that I was coughing a lot, I chose to sleep on the couch to not disturb David because he had to be at work at 10am.

Once he left, I got up and took a real nap in the bed (sleeping on the couch always leaves me with a crick in my neck). About 12:30, I woke up and was determined to get up and get some things accomplished.

I went to have lunch at a Mexican place in town and there I sat to make out goals for my Origami Owl and PartyLite businesses and pay some bills while having some great food in a relaxing atmosphere.

Then I drove across town to pay a bill or two, stopped at a gas station to get another Smashville Glass (in case you haven't heard, Nashville aka Smashville is in the Stanley Cup Playoffs). I was so happy to see my friend Brittany who I met 4 years ago when she was a server at Ichiro. I surprised her with a PartyLite candle and we chatted for a while and promised we would work out a sushi lunch date soon. So good to connect with people who are always glad to see you!

Then I tackled grocery shopping. I even had a list and still forgot stuff.  While in the store, it was crazy busy for a Saturday, but I got the most important needed things (meat, veggies, canned goods, bread and lots of Gatorade too, lol).

By the time I got home I was exhausted and hated bringing in the groceries.. I even sat in the floor in front of the fridge to put them away.

I must have caught a 2nd or 3rd wind after that, because I did a few things around the house, painted my nails and ran hot soapy water for the dishes.

Yes, I am in transition. Yes, I have had a lot of changes the past 5 years in my life, but I am still standing and still smiling.

Life is good (for the most part). Please take a minute and text or call someone and tell them you care. It will do you BOTH a world of good.

Many are hurting tonight. Some have said goodbye to their loved one on life support, some are recovering from horrible injuries and feel like they are a burden. Pray for them all and lift them up in ways only you can. Listen!! Always listen.

Have a great Saturday Night everyone!
The hotline is 1-800-799-7233 and it just might save a life.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

Change is in the Air (or something!)

What does the weekend mean to you?

In my lifetime, I have worked Mon-Fri jobs where my weekends were mine to schedule, fill-up, or sleep through.

I have also worked jobs that were open 24 hours or 7 days a week. That meant that  I was never really guaranteed a weekend off.

Either way, something about knowing the weekend is coming gives most of us something to look forward to (if you are constantly negative, you of course will disagree with this).

This weekend is my last full weekend working the graveyard shift. I am taking a leap of faith into the future and my new opportunities ahead of me.

I know it might take my body and sleep schedule a while to catch up with my excitement, but honestly I am really looking forward to being able to plan weekend events and/or trips now that I have made this change.

I have been with DSDC for a short time. However, it is time to move on.
I put in my notice last week and this weekend I am training the young lady that will be my replacement. 
This struck me as very odd last night. I never considered myself a trainer at this job.

But I thought it over and since I have been doing the job regularly, it does make sense.
It is very nice to not to have to work solo on the graveyard shift.

Honestly, they are so very short-staffed that I suppose it makes sense for me to train my replacement since even the floaters are stretched very thin at the agency.  I would rather a new caregiver at the house be trained by a regular than a floater because they are simply more informed.

The agency really does need good people that are willing to put in long hours for a starting pay of $9.00 an hour. Go Online and put in an application and you will be truly helping those in the community that cannot help themselves.

I rambled a bit there.. forgive me.

Jeremiah 29:11 seems like a timely verse for a career change.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I wish all of you a great weekend filled with things you CHOOSE to do and enjoy your time with loved ones. Call those far away or send them text messages filled with silly sayings to get their attention (did that a few times this week, because I was lonely).

Remember the number - 1-800-799-7233 for Domestic Violence Assistance

Monday, May 29, 2017

Comfort food and crochet

I have been on a bit of a cooking and baking binge this weekend.
This morning I got up and made cinnamon rolls to start the day (and sent some with David to work, too)

Yesterday while the Indy 500 was on tv, I made brownies using my new brownie pan from Pampered Chef. Very cool to have brownies that are perfectly portioned and not messy looking when I try to cut them up myself.

I am still crocheting. I finished a purple blanket recently and sent a pastel blanket out to Utah to my granddaughter too.

I have to watch you tube videos to learn a new stitch and practice before I get it good enough to tackle a blanket with it.

Some have asked me to make them a blanket and I have been honest and refused to make anything because my stitches are just not good enough at this point.

I am happy to report that I am getting out of my night job soon !!

It has been a learning experience but not a life time career that I would choose to do for very long.

I am so thankful for the opportunity offered by the bank. Come see us at First Bank in Dickson (on Highway 46) Monday - Friday. I would love to see you!

Here are a couple pictures of my latest works in progress

Have a great week and keep doing what makes you happy and gives you peace.
The number for the hotline is 1-800-799-7233


Memorial Day 2017

Hi everyone!
Hope you have had a great weekend (even if you had to work).

I am sitting here at home watching the Preds play the Penguins in the first game of the Stanley Cup Finals. Watching a team create history is pretty cool to this avid hockey fan.

I am now a month in to my job as a bank teller at a local bank. I am really liking the atmosphere and teamwork attitude we have. I even got my nerve up and asked if we could all wear Preds colors this past Friday. The branch manager agreed to it and about half of the folks in this picture have never watched a game but we all support this home team from Tennessee.

I spent part of my weekend working and part of my weekend watching the Indy 500, Coca Cola 600 and planting Jalepeno Peppers. 

Above all, take care of those you love. Stay in contact with them. Make sure they are okay (they may never ask for help or tell you differently). Send out care packages, and love on each other.

I noticed last week an initiative by local domestic violence initiatives that they have created spots for television geared toward getting a man's attention as well.
All of us need to be aware of the violence that happens in every neighborhood and do something about it.
Putting on your headphones to block out the fighting doesn't change that someone is being abused next door.

Call the hotline to help someone out. Please don't ignore what they are going through!
1-800-799-7233

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Not your regular Mother's Day Weekend post...

We all have mothers.

We may know them

We may not even know their names

They may have passed from this life and we miss them horribly

Or they may live across the country or ocean and we cannot reach them

We may have had a falling out with them years ago and not know the words to fix it, so we leave it be and carry on.

We may be mothers ourselves and promised ourselves when we had children, that we would do better than was done to us.

As I sit here in the carport on Mother's Day Eve 2017, I have lots on my mind.

Mostly, I am looking back at how I treated my children and how I did my dead level best to be there for them and always listen. I never had much monetarily to give my children but until they left home, I did my best to help them any way I could.

I refuse to message, text or email my kids to remind them it is Mother's Day week. They both can read and they know what tomorrow is. It will not be the end of me if I don't hear from them on that special Sunday that hallmark puts so much pressure on. They have their own lives to lead and their own choices to make. I will not run their lives for them.

I love my children every day on the calendar, not just ones that society tells me to.

Celebrate this weekend in a healthy way. No regrets my friends. No regrets. Show Love, Unconditional love!! If you are only happy if you get a present, gift, or phone call tomorrow, check yourself, because that Is NOT unconditional love. That is an unhealthy expectation you are putting on your children.

Let it go folks! Do your own thing!

My David very well may go fishing tomorrow. If he does, that is fine by me.

Because I will get off work around 7:15 in the morning and then I plan to come home for a while, sleep and then go to my favorite Mexican restaurant to have fajitas.  I also plan to find a way to watch the Preds/Ducks game tomorrow night.

When you force someone to spend time with you, it is NEVER a good thing. Love yourself enough to take care of yourself

Words

People say things and may mean it one way and the person hearing it takes it another way. Then you have the potential for a huge disagreement if you don't communicate very well.

I am adjusting to the new folks at my new day job. Sometimes one person gets on my nerves and they are micromanaging me while training me.

I have had to put my spine in and speak up for myself a few times this past week. Sometimes I got my message across and not sure about the rest of the time.

But if the proof is in the work, then I am proving to them and the customers that I am catching on and getting what I need to get.

I had a few people on my facebook get super inquisitive about my new job when I mentioned it and I briefly answered their invasive questions, then I was like, Nope, Not going to leave that up there.

So I deleted some messages on my facebook wall this week too. Since 2011, I am much more guarded about what I say on social media because I just don't trust people anymore.

I have deleted my facebook games and most folks associated with those games. I have deleted folks that are super political in their posts because it breaks my heart to see their point of view in that way.

Your words carry weight. Don't ever forget that.

Take the time to explain yourself even if you can't find the words, work through it and explain yourself. If you lose that line of communication, then the relationships you have will suffer.